#100 Days of Home Ed…Day 40

A day late…yes, I know. But after Day 39, I needed a small break to coalesce my thoughts.

First of all, my apologies if I stepped on any individual’s toes. That was not my intent.

I am NEVER angry or upset with individuals. I firmly believe that we ALL do the best we can with what we have/know at that moment. And that every last one of us is going to make our share of mistakes. I sure do…and openly admit that.

My frustrations then were two-fold…

1. Anger once again at the prevailing SYSTEM that limits us. That gets us stuck into a box of behaviors that victimize us as much as our children.
2. FRUSTRATION with myself for not doing or being able to do more at this time to make a difference.

A couple of years ago a friend of mine decided that my film knowledge was woefully inadequate and so began a campaign to enlighten me. And ‘forced’ to watch movies that I had once eschewed as too violent or gory, I in fact discovered some gems that held deep meaning and wisdom. Among them this one…

When you have come unplugged…either of your own free will, the actions of others or Fate…you want so desperately to share that ‘gift’ with others. There is such joy in seeing things as they are and not as we have been trained to see them. There is freedom. There is happiness. And you see it almost as your duty to share the epiphany. To unplug those poor ‘ignorant’ souls.

But with time…you realize this WISDOM.

Some people are NOT READY to be unplugged.

And sadly…some never will be.

That is intensely furstraitng for someone like me. Until you realize that if you force others to your view point then you have become the very thing you despise…another system upon which they become dependent. They will have merely switched from one alliance to another.

That is NOT what I want either. Because one thing that my experiences with religion, politics and even relationships have taught me is…

You can NEVER change another person!

Oh, you can modify behaviors….perhaps?!? But even that will not last long unless their very soul/heart/spirit desires to change.

Sometimes I must be reminded of this fact. And those moments are not always comfortable.

I am sorry if that all came out wrong. Each of us must walk our own paths. And time/Fate will bring to me those for whom this message is sent. And all my angst in the world will not and SHOULD not yank plugs at random. My apologies….